Alone

Alone i feel
In a crowd of peers
A generation that has fallen from the thrown
There eyes judge the world
And their tongs sharp as butcher blades
They know no control
In ignorance or knowledge
They let loose word more damaging then a gun a blade
Which is were the victims seek refuge
The victims who have passed exhaustion
Who have lost their will lost themselves
In a era were there is no escape from eyes of a fallen generation
Only the extraordinary pass through unscathed
The rest have the marks to show a struggle for life
So alone i nurse my cuts and bruises waiting for then next to appear

Fear of light

The chill of dark
A despair that threatens to consume
A night darker then a blind mans sight
in this world i wonder
In this world i know how to survive to fight and live
In a world of warmth
Emotion that consumes
Light that shows the world
In this world i cower
In this world it brings me fear the unknown and volunrability
Thus i shun the hand
The hand which reaches to bring me
Bring me to a world i fear

Silence

My heart it beats

In the longing silence

My voice it rises

It yells to clear the silence

To whisk it away

To allow the slightest emotion through

But as I sit alone

Waiting for someone to hear my voice

To break the silence

To see my emotions

The silence it engulfs the sound

Whisking it away

To places unheard

Sending it to be lost in time

Sex of today's society

Sex is a beautiful thing between a husband and wife, a man and women, to create life. But the way we use it now is disgusting. It should be saved for marriage when you’re ready. There used to be laws that prohibited sex before marriage.  It shows you just how far we have come. Now days we sleep around like it is nothing. Teens are getting pregnant left and right unprepared for the responsibility that is thrust on them. It doesn’t just cause problems for teens. Sex is also a problematic situation that affects every one of every age. Early age sex is a leading cause of divorce. Having had sex with different people you know what it is like which can lead you to being bored with your partner.

So many people seek out this little pleasure of life forsaking the pleasure and happiness that could have been theirs. You cannot receive the greatest things in life without first giving up sacrifices that strain at you. For just waiting for the right time, place, and person you would be able to have a world of happiness. Sex destroys so much in our world with its temptation, with its feeling. Families go up in smoke, same with careers, reputations, and even people’s lives are taken because of sex. Innocent children are ripped from there families they are brought into a world that isn’t ready to take care of them only because people don’t have the mentality and decency to wait for the right to come along.

To me, sex is one of the most sacred things that we possess in this world. It is more sacred then a glass of water to a man dying of thirst. I may be wrong to say this, but I put it up on a pedestal that stands next to god. Sex is a thing that gives life, it creates the most beautiful and pure creatures that can’t be created any other way. But as it is a beautiful and pure thing used the wrong way, it becomes the most twisted and blacker then black evil that threatens our existence. Sex has destroyed so many things that we have held dear in our lives, it has the power to destroy entire nations. Do you think the prince of Troy wanted Helena because she was intelligent or witty?  No, it says in the history books it was because she was the most beautiful women that lived.  Tales of her beauty were abundant in the land.

Sex is also a very emotional and very physical thing. Physical emotion is the most true and pure thing that we as a species can use to communicate. A hug, a kiss, a stroke of the hair is all very emotional as well as a fist to the face or a knee to the groin. This is why I have grown to be very awkward in our society that is such a physical one.  I do not show my emotions to just anyone, it requires a great deal for me to express even a trickle of true emotion. So when I think of people having sex willy-nilly, I wonder how they can do it, how they can share their emotions with complete strangers. Sex is the ultimate physical and emotional contact one can have with another human. You should only be able to show this raw emotion and give yourself completely to another that you trust and feel comfortable with. Don’t waste it with a random person that you have never met. Also don’t waste it with a relationship that you don’t truly know is going to last. Wait for your marriage; wait for the one you know truly gets you, who truly understands you for all you are.

The broken station

Hello Hello can you hear me

Anyone anyone can you hear me

Ah good it’s fixed

Alright now stupid

Now wack yourself upside the head

And start listening

This is your common sense speaking

The music of my soul

A sound I beat in my soul

A music that only the gifted hear

A music that they call their own

A music that brings fourth joy to a soul

A music only for one

A music that all but none wish for

A sound beats in my soul

The music I hear

The music you hear

This music I hear but you don’t

I play with it

I mold it

Shaping it to my tune

A tune none will here but those with the ears

Ears that hear music unlike you

A music that I make sing for you

A music you will never hear

For the music I draw out of this instrument

The notes are unlike any you’ve experienced

A music that you can see

The music of my soul

So I ask can you hear them

My notes I play

The ones only I will hear

The ones that give you this page

Do you hear my soul

Let me ask you again can you hear the music

The music of these words

The beat the rhythm the lyrics the dance

Can you hear what I can hear

Can you see what I see

Now let me tell you something

A thing you did not experience

You are wrong you cannot hear it

Even with the belief you so strongly cling to

There is not a soul who believes that they can’t achieve

So I will tell you you are wrong

This music is myn and myn alone

You will never be able to hear it

The beat the rhythm the lyrics the dance it plays

For your imitation you hear and see is not the music I play

You don’t have ears that can hear what I hear

Like you don’t have eyes of a blind

So how can you see what he sees

Can you hear it the music that you will never see

For this is myn not yours how dare you believe you hear what you cannot

The music that comes with in

Now leave leave i tell you

Go forth and find the music which you only you can see

A music that I will never know

Go forth

Find the music

The music only for you

For this foolish one

This is myn and not yours

Leave I wish to finish this song in peace

But I have one last thing to say

Can you hear it the music my instrument plays

The music you will never hear

The sound of my soul

Can you hear it

Can you see it

The music I call my own

The world for me

I search for a world

A place to call mine

A place of experiences just for me

Containing Emotions for only me

A place unable to contain my ambitions

A place hidden from all but me

This selfish desire plagues me

A disease wished to be ridden of

Why must I have a place for me

When I want the world for the ones I care

Why am I alone in a place longing for companions

Why must I be filled with regret at others achievements

Longing them to be mine

A disease to be rid of curls in my heart

A world for me